I am slowly losing my mind. I come back to this place and it burns deep into my mind making me froth at the mouth.I feel like iam being backed into a corner and people are poking at me with a stick.

Iam Trying so hard to get out of the army right now that whatever ptsd I did have is now in full swing along with all the insanity that comes with. I have to try hard to keep this fact from friends and family and do me 100% best to be " normal" but while iam in this high stress enviroment its very difficult.

I AM LOSING MY MIND !@!@ on a epic lvl iam tired and sick and sick and tired of being sick and tired.

My life Has hit one of what I see as many peaks that are coming.
I have never been so In love with someone that it makes me crazy or hurt when iam not around them.

Life in the army will not last forever and when Iam finally done with my service to the nation I will be even more happy,Because I will be able to fully devote myself to jess and support her like she is supporting me.

Babe we are a awesome team and things will only get better for us. I love you